Mummy&Roo

On Monday's I will be doing a bit of a health review and summary for the prior week. Why? There is a lot of taboo still surrounding medical issues including mental health, womens problems and other health issues and I hope by sharing some of my experiences this might help normalise some things. I do not want any sympathy for this, I'm just sharing to help others in the same basket and to dispel some of the ridiculous taboos. I have: Depression, Anxiety, PCOS & Unspecified Abdominal Pain (they can't diagnose a source) This week my back has started to improve but I can feel it's still weak. Even simple things can lead it to twang, especially in my shoulders. A busy day, even of walking can cause my shoulder to seize up and my arm to feel bruised and tingly all day. I can't sit at my computer for too long at a time without a decent break because that's what makes it the worst. It is getting there though. My sleep has gone to crap this week though. I fee...

It seems my life isn't my own anymore. I knew having a child would change everything and change my name to Mummy but I didn't realise I'd lose everything. I can't clean, I can't tidy, I can't read, I can't eat, I can't sit nothing. It's not even enough that I sit stroking her arm i have to do it an exact way. I know I'm not unique, I know every parent struggles but I can only see my own experience and darkness. This week I have worked 3 days at my employer out for 11 hours a day, 1 day where I did 7 hours self employment, half a day being shouted around by the tyrant and so far 4 hours today in which time she's broken me. In the brief windows of time where Roo isn't driving me mad the cat comes and claws my leg. In all honesty I want to run away from everything. I love my daughter, I will put her before me whenever it matters, I am a good parent. I'm just sick of her happiness always seeking to be at the expense of my own. Ne...